Sacked BIG Brother housemate Trish has broken her silence in her first interview since her “racist and homophobic” tweets were exposed.
The popular roommate chatted along The Independent as she admitted her “shock” at reading the vile news.
Trish Balusa left the Big Brother house to a sea of cheers and people chanting “Trish for the win” but just 24 hours later things took a dramatic turn when some remained and called for the shock eviction ” should be canceled” after the messages came to light.
As an avowed feminist, the views expressed on her social media accounts seemed completely at odds with the personality she had shown in the house, where she was quick to respond to injustice and express her opinion.
Now Trish has told the publication that she “regrets” sending the posts.
She said, “You know, I was so shocked.
“I think for the first time I looked in the mirror and saw within myself, the people I criticize and the things I resist.”
After the messages were revealed, Trish issued a public apology, taking responsibility for the things she said and insisting that she no longer held such views.
Following the revelations, she was quickly dropped from a planned appearance on ITV2 spin-off Late and Live.
Trish added of the situation: “You are expressing an opinion [on social media] And then when you’re done, you move on, and then maybe you learn, you change, you challenge yourself, you get different experiences,” she notes.
“You can’t go back and elaborate on that view.
“You can’t go back and say, ‘Actually, this is what I think now based on my current experiences or the people I’ve learned that have enlightened me’.”
Trish also admitted that she would be forced to have conversations with some of her closest friends from the House after they left the House, as she admitted they were among the “marginalized groups” she had previously targeted.
Referring to Yinrun, Henry, Jordan and Matty, Trish added, “I need to have a conversation with Yinrun.”
“I have to have a conversation with Jordan, Henry, Matty – actually I have to have a conversation with everyone because like I said, you write something and then move on.”
“You’re no longer prepared to even think about it or have these thoughts in your head that it’s a big shock when it comes back and that you have to think about the people it’s affecting in your life.”
Trish also admitted that she was sad because her posts had affected her brother, who is openly transgender.
She explained her guilt over “disappointing” him, saying: “I really apologized and said, ‘I let you down because we’ve come so far on this journey,’ and that’s what I have to look back on.” .” A person, someone very close to me, someone who is in a community, they need to look at this.
“This is a conversation I need to have with many people who are part of the marginalized group who are hurt by the comments I have made in the past.”
“Hopefully I could trust them to know my heart. You know who I am.”
She continued to insist that the person TV viewers fell in love with was her real self, insisting that she couldn’t “pretend” to be something she wasn’t.
The mother-of-one said: “I love the support, I love that people can give me grace. But I also understand that there are some people for whom this is still very new.”
“I want to remind people that I couldn’t fake who I was for so long on Big Brother.”